For the past six months to a year I have been struggling with my body in a way more physical than normal. I have gone through tests and scans and many many doctors. Finally today I got some answers that came with even more questions.
My joints are my main problems. Currently my hips are the worse so I've been seeing an orthopedic doctor at SCOI. Today I was able to go back to get the results of my MRI. This came with both good news and bad news.
The good news is that I don't need surgery right now! Yay. That was a major concern for me. The bad news is that I have FAI in my left hip along with my Ehlers Danlos Syndrome which is a connective tissue disorder. I walked away from that appointment with a referral for two different specialist, a handicap parking prescription, and a prescription for a set of forearm crutches.
Man. I just keep telling myself "I can do this. I can do this. I can do this." It can be hard when my mental illnesses are met with chronic illnesses. I'm going to be honest with you. I broke down in the shower earlier this morning before my doctor's appointment.
I was overwhelmed and frustrated. Both FAI and EDS cause a lot of pain and I get cranky.
This was okay. I am allowed to feel overwhelmed and frustrated. In my opinion there are no bad emotions. It is vital that they be felt. The turning point is how we choose to deal with these emotions.
I wish I had dealt with mine better. I did take some steps to calm my anxiety. I used some essential oils and I wrote down everything I felt the doctor needed to know. Writing helps me. I can understand things more clearly when I see them written out. However, I was in a bad mood all morning. I am working to overcome this.
These illnesses are a new chapter in my life. I will deal with them as they come. I will need to take extra precautions to guard my mental health in the upcoming months as I tackle this new trial. I know my Heavenly Father will be with my though and through him I will make it to the other side.
Lastly, I appologize in advance for anyone's toes I step on.