Saturday, April 8, 2017


Every now and then my Insomnia will flare up. I've had problems with my sleep since I was 15. I do take medications to sleep, but even though I'm on some heavy medications I grow tolerant to meds very very quickly. Take tonight for example.

I took my meds early tonight. I took them around 9:30pm I think. I woke up at 1am, stayed awake for about an hour and a half, then went back to sleep until 4am. Now I'm awake and know I won't be going back to sleep.

I've learned through trial and error that for me to sleep until say 7am when I normally need to get up for school I have to wait until midnight to take my pills. They'll last about that long now.

Going up on my sleeping meds is not an option. I take two for sleep. One is Trazodone which I am maxed out on. Since I maxed out on that my psychiatrist added Restoril. That one will put me to sleep while Trazodone is supposed to make me stay asleep.

When she first added Restoril I could sleep from 9:30pm-8am. Slowly that has dwindled down.

Even though I don't sleep I normally lie in bed anyway around 10ish and try to relax. My brain generally stops working well at night. If I'm extremely tired I can fall asleep on my own; however the most my body can ever sleep on its own without medication is an hour and a half.

I normally rely on getting to sleep from midnight to 7am, but then I have to factor in other things. Some nights my pain will be too high that it will cancel out my sleeping meds. Other times I'll have a nightmare and wake up in the middle of the night and be awake for a while.

Long story short my sleep is hardly ever good and because when I do sleep it's due to medication it is more of a drugged sleep and I never feel rested. I know a lot of people have opinions on medications and sleeping meds, but I have tried sleeping on my own and I have tried OTC and herbal remedies, they don't work for me.  If I don't take the meds I take I could go days without sleeping. My body simply won't sleep on its own.

I do go through phases though where it is better than others, however this is not one of those times. Right now my sleep, due to a number of factors, is not very good. This creates a problem because our bodies need sleep. If I don't get enough sleep my pain is higher the next day, the fatigue from my EDS is worse, and my mental health is going to be worse the next day. It's kind of a vicious cycle.

I know that it will get better. I'll get out of this phase and sleep well again, or maybe we'll tweak my meds. For now I just need to learn how to deal with it. Today was kind of my fault. I know better than to take my meds that early, but I was tired so I did it anyways. Oh well. It won't kill me. Just like everything else in life it is something I learn to handle and live with.


  1. sleepy black gingerApril 10, 2017 at 12:34 AM

    I know how you feel OP. From I was 15 as well, I could only sleep for an hour and a half during any 24 hr period and always felt exhausted. I lived like that for years (im 21 now) and tried almost every anti-depressant that is suppose to help with sleep. Contrary to you, Im very sensitive to medication and they often made me sleep minimum 10 hours and then I would feel groggy all day. But despite the number of hours I slept, I was always tired. That apparently is called "non-restorative" sleep which is when we sleep and dont feel rested. The reason for non-restorative sleep depends on the person and his/her condition. And, my sleep schedule was very off. I would feel most drowsy around 8am and most alert during the night. I have corrected my sleep schedule by seeing a Cognitive Behavioral Therapist. She saved my sleep schedule, and all she made me do were simple little things and it made such a difference. Even though my sleep schedule is now normal, I am still having non-restorative sleep. I currently see a sleep specialist doctor and we have been doing a number of tests and made progress to understanding what is happening when I sleep. Its great to have general doctor or psychiatrist but I 100% recommend seeing a sleep center clinic and hear what they have to say. All the best.

    1. I'm glad you've been able to get some help. I know that medication can be incredibly frustrating and insomnia and non restorative sleep can negatively affect all aspects of your life.